Smiles

Hey...sometime between work and sleep, I woke up and actually have started to enjoy my job!! Yikes!! The people I work with are great (with a few exceptions as is always the case)...do not get me wrong..it is still hard work and i do still hate the hours, but I do not feel as depressed as I was in the beginning...maybe I am getting used to being alone? That is probably a big part of it, I have my routine now and that makes me feel like my life once again has some purpose, I have been meeting some really great people as well that have helped me to smile through my rough times... Work on Friday was eerily slow...yes of course I got 2 traiges in with 10 minutes left of my shift, but I was ok with that because I was actually all caught up on paperwork...and it was a vomiting cat...I see this so often it is routine, either they hospitalize and I do the work-up or they take home on SQ fluids, anzemet (dolasetron)...this one hospitalized but I was still able to get out around 3:30a which is really not bad. Had a couple hit by cars...one lived and actually just had some lung contusions (bruising) so kept overnight for monitoring; other was DOA (dead on arrival) sad story, Dad was drunk and had taken dog with him to gas station to get a drink, tied him outside and he got away and ran into traffic and got killed...all he kept saying was that his wife was going to kill him...I think the relationship may suffer a little bit on that one!! What else did I see? Oh yeah..blocked cat...got to teach our extern how to unblock it...was cool... So yeah, the job is making me re-think my original plans of doing a Residency...definitely would want to do an internal medicine residency I think...but it is early and I still have a couple months to think about it...we will see. Today I had off, didn't do much...was raining all day!!! Had lunch with a friend, now hangin out and watchin 'The Hills'...some mind-dumbing tv show about rich chicks and sometimes watching it I fear I may actually become more stupid by watching the show. I do not understand those people who feel like money is everything...all money gets you are superficial objects that mean nothing (and sometimes superficial people who mean even less)...it doesn't buy happiness...it just buys things to make you even more unhappy...the richest people are those with the biggest hearts and sometimes the smallest pocketbooks..look for what's inside the heart not the wallet. Ok, stepping off my soapbox. Wait a minute, while I am on it you know what else bothers me? People who lie...really the truth hurts less in the long run...just give it to me straight the first time...besides what goes around really does come back around (to bite you in the a--). What else can I say about me, my gripes, wanna know what I like? I love hot tamales ( I am eating them right now), I love snuggling on a rainy day--if the other person likes you, otherwise it is just a waste of time, I love tacos, I love ethnic foods, I love pina coladas, I love going for a run with my headphones on and the music really loud, I love the smell and sound of the ocean, I love the first snowfall of the season, I love surprises, I love getting flowers because it makes me smile, I love dancing - I am going to start taking lessons, I love trendy stuff, I love being different than everyone else, I love thinking about what I am going to do with my life next, I love the possibility of ending up in a brand new place, I love getting emails and texts that make me smile, I love modern furniture, I love little hole in the wall eateries and bars b/c they serve the best food and drinks, I love Honey Weiss beer but am trying to beak out and try new ones, I love seafood, I love muscles, I love the song "Hey There Delilah"...i think that is it for now. I am going to head out...Starting to write too much stuff about myself...another of my gripes, I hate when people know too much about me, if you know a lot then I have let you in and you are special, if not -- sorry. Ok, seriously stepping off the soapbox now. I am off tomorrow too, perhaps I will write more then...